DeLoach Reveals Childhood Abuse Trauma

Nikki DeLoach recently opened up about the profound impact of childhood abuse on her life. The actress detailed experiencing both physical and sexual abuse, which she stated made her feel like she wanted to disappear. This trauma led to the onset of disordered eating, specifically anorexia, as she internalized messages of being unworthy and unlovable. DeLoach found solace and guidance in Glennon Doyle's book 'Untamed,' which helped her begin to untangle these deep-seated issues and cultivate self-love.

Further reflecting on her past, DeLoach explained how her hypervigilant mindset, a survival mechanism developed in childhood, proved crucial when her youngest son was born with severe congenital heart defects. She believes this ingrained survival instinct made her the ideal mother for him during his critical health battles. DeLoach also shared that she sought trauma therapy to connect with her younger self and process the pain, acknowledging the strength she drew from that past self.

DeLoach's journey also involved navigating her early career in the music industry, where she admittedly struggled with perfectionism and numbing behaviors, viewing them as self-destructive. She later found healing through therapy and reading 'Anatomy of a Spirit,' which empowered her to take control of her own recovery. She eventually married her husband, Ryan Goodell, in her late 20s, after a period of rebuilding their lives together.